a simple plot

i once read it somewhere, that if a guy does a stupid thing once, he's simply a moron. but if he does it twice, it's because of a girl.... ok fine, i watched dr seuss : the lorax. ada dalam tu. pffttt

i guess we've come to agree that i'm posting again, that means i'm superbly bored. i guess i'm just gonna say how i did a lot of stupid things, if you know what i mean :)

i never had a healthy relationship. i never had a friend say to me " whaat??!!dah 4 taun couple". my longest relationship was 6 months and it wasn't that healthy. i did my part. and i can't say much whether she was doing the same. but yeah, i really was into her cause im too naive i guess to think that, " man, she's the one ". did i do stupid things? durhhh. i once thought that if i have a DSLR, i may be cheating on her.pffttt. and i deactivated my fb just to avoid being in contact with other girls. stupid huh? and i'd say that time, it's stupidly in love.fuck you, old me! then it went to hell :/

but i gotta say, i kindda want to thank that relationship though. i became more, let's say strong and ego-er. it's where i dont care what people say or do to me, i just say " whatever" . i became more married to friends, i get more involved in social activities, i mean, go out and lepak2 more. i had nothing to worry about. that goes on for several months, and i had another relationship and it went to hell 2 months later, and i couldnt care less about it. so, im still good to go.

that goes on, for a long time. i went home for cuti sem, spend more time with family and friends and stuffs. it was good. but those days, to sum up, has made me realize, damn, i was pretty lonely. when i have a girl poking me around, hitting on me, *snap, just like that, i became like i was before. the fucked up-old me. DAMN.

i get all clingy, i think bout it too much, i get paranoid, overlysensitive, bla bla bla. lots of stupid things because of someone.little do i know that, i was living in the world of my own, thinking that im gonna get her.the scientific term is, syok sorang. but in reality, day after day, it became more and more impossible, because its not that mutual

so my point is, when u care not too much of a thing, when u dont go all clingy over someone, when u act cool instead of pathetic, when all u ever have to worry is you, when you could finally say that you dont need anyone, the life just gets better and better.

im at my best performance, emotionally when i could be that.

all im saying is, i just want to be like that again where i have nothing to worry about, nothing to think about so much, no one to fall in love so much and get knocked down in the end and be weak and pathetic.

so, i shall get back up and act cool bout whatever happens and i shall just say " whatever " . there's so much more to long for in the future rather than these things that happen to me now where they only make me waste my teenagers time.i get no one, fuck it, i dont care. asal duit xkurang, sihat memanjang, i'd say WHATEVER.

i dont get the one i want, its okay. people dont give shit bout me, its okay. i guess i havent found the person who can handle me. so, it's a simple plot, but i know one day, good things are coming my way :)

life without pity

don't get confused with the title. it's not like, do not give donations, don't pity them, or, don't show mercy to those you hate and beat the shit out of them, no mercy! unlike that. . .

im just saying here, no matter how things turn you down, no matter how people reject you, no matter how the person you want so much doesn't want you, ( well, mostly, the no-matters here are more to people with people,love), do not be PATHETIC.

i have friends who would call me or text me saying how much he/she is in trouble, with their love partners and start talking crap how he/she would do anything to get the loved ones back, how they would change, how this, how that. not to mention, they only reach me when, and only, they have such problems. it's more to, when they don't have anyone, then you find Irfan Hasif,huh? not that i wouldn't help cause i would no matter what, yeah, i just have this uncontrollable needs to please people, but, to reach me only when you have problems? man, that sucks. at least you could have been nicer even when your pockets are full. to pop out suddenly, out of the blue??

anyway, i swerved a bit,huh? anyway, don't be sad over things that wouldn't affect your health, wealth, and well being. don't do stupid things over such thing. you breakup, so WHAT?!! if you're not 78, don't be whining about how you love him/her so much like you wouldn't get anyone better after. stop being such a crybaby and suck it up. you have a lot to go on rather than, " huuuaaaa!!!dia buat i camni, camni, camtu. i sayang diaa. i xmau lepaskan diaa.camne ni irfan?huaaa.huaaa!!!"

my lips may say, " sabar k. u will be fine" but if only you could hear my heart says " FUCK YOU! he's not even a good or handsome guy to start with, and to whine about it to me when you don't even have the courtesy to say hello when you were okay? FUCK OFF"

this badness only goes to those who xpenah2 nk contact, tau2 dah xde org nk mengadu, contact aku.anyway, this example above, is the pure example of being pathetic. girls, it's no wonder but if a GUY pulls something like that, you might want to click ' unfriend ' on FB or ' delete ' on your phonebook.

just to be clear, i'm not here to say that " hey, do not come to me and start parroting your fucking problems. I don't want to hear it". i'm a good listener, seriously. come to me with any problems, any difficulties, anything. i'm good for that. what i'm not good at is, when you didn't even say hi to me on anywhere, that includes social network, and out of the blue, " irfan. i sayang dia, i xnk clash, bla bla bla...." we might have problems.

so, do not be pathetic is the point, and just. . . bear in mind. it's a simple plot, but good things are coming your way

p/s : i'm a good listener,but not a good follower of your crappy things you pull when u have trouble :)

Back to clueless typing

i'm not gonna bother calculating the period i've been abandoning my blog but one particular person did really make myself to check back on it, and, perhaps do something about it. which is what i'm doing. not much to say since my last post but, well, let's look back on what i had, i did, i. . . 'achieved'.

well, i had myself a girl, nice girl, lovely, gorgeous, but the problem was, she's hot. u know how the 'hot-girls' system work. well, left again but this time, i cared only a lil bit about it which is good rather than being a crybaby and whining how sad the life was. truthfully, thank god i finally realize it, it's just pathetic. so, here i am doing cool and whatnot :)

oh, result, haven't told parents, no guts, since the arrest for smoking, is bad. no fails, but bad.

cuti sem, 3 bln, tak amik SORT SHEM, so, had myself a Rapunzel period for a month and got myself a job at Parkson later, for eleven days. had some problems and had to back out and to continue the Rapunzel period. but this time, it's different. it's RAMADHAN.alhamdulillah, to the time where these are written, terawih x tinggal lagi.

that's it and until i have the ability which i would say, people of the world would call, TOTAL BOREDOM, i'll be writing again :)

You are stressed,you are depressed,you're all lonely,you call your family

With Mama, I could saja2 call and ask her how she is, what's up and everything. It would not be awkward or anything. But with my dad, well, it's a different story. Not that I hate him, not that I'm being choosy, but with Papa, it's different. It would be something awkward if I call him, and saja2 call, tanya khabar. I KNOW it's something that a son should do. Ask the "How are you?" questions, always do that and always keep in touch. It's not a problem with mom, but dad in the other hand, it's different.It's because he's always been serious. But he's the fun dad and he's someone I will always be proud of because of his friendliness and honesty. He's so great at making friends. There is one time I followed him to a car workshop in KL,Chinese owns it, and he made friends with the workers and owner just like that, and started getting discount for the repair. In Cameron, where he lives, he has friends all over the hill. And if I'm not mistaken, he has friends of orang2 asli there.He's loved by his big family.He's so loved by my late grandma,her siblings,Papa's cousins,nieces,nephews. How I wish I could be like that but I seem to be far away from being one. I love him so much.

Mama toooooooooooo. Mama would call from time to time. And no matter what I do, I won't say " Mama,call kejap lagi ". On the way to class, in class. If lecturer nak marah, lantak ah.Mak aku call. Lagi best dari dgr lecture. I could tell anything I want to her. And the funny thing is, it was like, a system, where after I finish telling my short stories, she will then starts her long long story bout my adik, Im, bout along, bout how she went to Hatyai( dia salu pegi sana.risau ),there and there,and everything else. Sometimes, I don't really listen to what she says.honestly. I would just listen to her happy tone telling those stories. What a great mom. MISS YOU.

BAITHEWAY, what I meant to tell is, today, I bravely, putting aside the imminent awkwardness, by calling my dad. It's been weeks I don't talk to him. How I miss his voice answering that call. I used the " camne nak wat laptop cmni,cmne nk fix bnda ni,cmne nk wat ni " trick to have a long conversation. I miss that voice. And then, I got to talk to Nik Iman Hayani, my pretty little wild sister. " Abe dok wat gapo tu? ", tu je la dia salu tanya.Dia pun malu2 nk tanya apa.I miss her very much too even I know if kitaorang jumpa, mesti gado, and Ibu mesti marah2. How my lovely and loved step mom would get mad at us fighting over small things which was always caused by that princess. HUH. And then, I got to talk to NIK IMRAN HADIF!!!!!!!And he was, " Huuuuuuhhh ". Tak boleh nk cakap lagi. Tp suara manja maintain. Nak cakap ngan ibu xsempat, phone suda mati. And the call that got me to talk to everyone else really made my day. Ngehh. Miss themm :)

Anyway,if you guys were to read this blog, especially Hadif, I miss you guys, and I'm having a hard time mentally handling things I'm suffering right now. You are the only ones who know me well and make me happy no matter what. Hadif cukup sekadar snyum je, my problems would be, having wings and fly away by force.

En. Nor Razzaman ( Papa ) yeah, yang kanan tu

Puan Norizan ( Mama )

Tg Yasmin( Ibu )

Imtiyaz Hafiy

Nik Iman Hayani
Nik Imran Hadif

Say whatever you want to say about the " papa/mama thing ", it is how I'm raised. You may say " eleh,papa mama.Bajet comel ke ape?? ". Anda again, it is how I'm raised when I was a kid.And I'm gonna still calling them that with my kids around someday :)

Oktq :)

p/s : i know we should be reaching Allah when we are stressed, depressed...i simply want to cherish my family,that's all. :)

The nothing song that became something

Have you ever had this kind of experience? To me, it's kind of an experience that you won't really just forget. It's an experience that makes you go " Oh, I remember it when I was... " Right????
What experience lah wehh???!!!

Okfine.I always have this and I really do like it even the end result was always about dizziness and headache. Okay, I got back from class, tired and didn't have enough sleep and have another class like, 3 hours later. So okay, I would take a nap, and listen to my lovely pinkish MP3 ( it's not that I chose pink.Have story for that ) or sometimes, I turn on my laptop and play songs on my Winamp, have the playback set to Shuffle. Then, put my full-of-crap-when-I'm-sleepy head on my stolen-from-rumah-Acik pillow. I would enjoy the songs, and eventually, falling to sleep. Anyway, I will have a small piece of reminder in my head that says " weeh,ada class jap lagi kul 2 ". So, I only have few hours to sleep and when that happen, I will always, tido2 tersedar. The thing is, aku akan tido2 tersedar ngan pening2,mamai2, and then tido blk. While that's happening, the song I'm listening that time, will always( most of the time ) determine what my dream will be, and then, it will be a dream that I will remember, and the song will become, song that will be 'playing' in my head from time to time.While sleeping, the choice of songs that determine the dream wasn't really , just like that.It was more particular and it was always the song that I was  listening to when I was about to wake up in few more minutes. So, you may say, it's the last song that will always be the something-song.

I remember these three songs the most that were involved in such experience I had.

KT Tunstall - Other side of the world

This song became something when I was 15. It was not really the same story as above because I was sleeping at night with my with my radio turned on, Hitz.fm, with this song played. But, I was, tido bangun tido bangun.It needs to be, tido2 sedar to have this experience.Anyway, it became something until now.

The Verve - Bittersweet Symphony

Became something when I was 15 too, and happened once again when I was 18.Great song

 Evanescene - My Immortal

Became something recently. Few months ago. Sad and scary dream. I kindda lost someone I loved :O

James Morrison - You Give Me Something

Became something just recently. Not from my MP3 or laptop. It was played by my roomate, Naqib. Dia salu pasang lagu ni, but it was, biasa, until the day aku tido, and dia pasang this song, it 'comes' into my head, and construct some kind of sweet and happy dream. kena ngan lagu :D

 

Anyway, I always grab the chance to be able to experience dream. It was great, waking up, partially conscious, and kindda have the feeling of, you're not there, you're in another world, you're in the song you listened last, and if it was a happy song, you're in the world of that happy song. And if you're in a sad song, dramatic song, you'd be in a world of, something movie-y and it's actually great. It makes me feel, good and sometimes bad and that's what makes you to really value your life and what's ahead.....and it makes you go dizzy and pretty heave headache after that. Tido2 sedar, mmg xlena tido laa.....tapi, the feeling tu yg matters....Btw,this is my story,my experience, and people might go, " pelik la mamat ni ", but yeap, it's what that makes me having a story to tell. Having a story rocks!!!

oktq :)

Loser in hometown

Just to be clear, it's not that I'm too KL to selalu taknak go home to Kelantan.It's not that I don't miss Puan Norizan.But, have you ever watched Gulliver's Travels? He's a dork in his hometown and a hero on Lilyput/Liliput island.That's kindda how it is.Only different in term of heroism tu kot.

In Kelantan, since the form 3 incident I had, I get scared of every Kelantanese. Afraid to go there and there.Have soooo limited friends ever since. That incident has made my mindset changed to " everyone doesn't like me ". I couldn't make friends ever since.Anyway,putting aside the lame story, if aku balik umah,Kelantan, I will not be going anywhere. I have so limited friends. In fact, I only go out with these people ;

Zahrin

Pok Mey

Akim

And sometimes, very rare, I go out with this good brother;

Nasri

 The people I mentioned above are those yg aku penahand maybe blh kuar ngan aku.There are others actually yg penah kuar but it was ramai2 and I was insignificantly there and xrapat and we only got out once. We never got in touch but the people above, always jgk.To those yang terasa, so sorry.Please have a talk with me. :)

So,basically, these are the ones yang I could go out with. With my experience, the incident, I don't have much friends.So, that's why, if I go home, if xkuar ngan diorg,duk umah je. And I'm a person who always gets bored but nak kuar, if dorang xde, n selalunye xde, terpaksa duk umah.But, if I'm here, somewhere KL-ish, I could go out by myself and go anywhere.What to do.I'm a person who just don't have much friends, and a troubled person.

Plus, there are public transports in KL.Aku kan xde lesen lagi(siyes malu), but it's because of certain reasons and mainly,revolves around financial.Anyway, in Kelantan, I just couldn't understand how the public transport works.And, I kindda afraid to go out because of,the reasons stated before.So,I just wont go out. I know, in KL, lagi la byk penyangak2,lagi la bahaya..But, I just felt, more safer, and I could really be independent.Lagipun, xpenah pegi tmpat2 yang bahaya kat KL ni.Anyhow,I always think that, people of Kelantan just don't accept me.

On Fb, my Kelantanese friends would update their status, "bestnya blk umah" , " dah nak habis ke cuti??xpuas duk rumah". I can't never say that. One week being home, is just enough. I can't go out even my mom would not mind at all if I go out and get home late in the morning.I have no friends and I can't really make one easily. Mindset : PEOPLE HATE ME!!

SO,some Kelantanese may say, "Huh,lupa daratan.baso kace lupakan kulit.koya duk KL lamo2.". Trust me, the people messed up my mind to become like this were Kelantanese, and I can't seem to be staying there. I never felt safe. Just to be clear.

Raya Haji 2011 : Between " Hmm,its different " and " Haa? tu je? "

If anyone ever asked me, "Hey,fan.Amacam Raya Haji? ", I could go " Agak ar weh perli pun!!!! "....Kidding,but hey, I could. First, people kept updating their status, " Dah nak sampai rumah ", " Home sweet home ". (oh yeah,I reactivated my Facebook). Well, it does hurt a little but haven't reach the "Arrrgghhh!!!!! " point yet. Then, it starts, the evening/night of Aidiladha. Photos of family gathering, photos cows being slaughtered,bloods here and there, I know it's starting to sound, little weird, more like a Saw movie, but hey, they are the symbolic photos of Hari Raya Eiduladha and I have none of such photos. So, first, yeah, was not going back home to Kelantan. Friends and maybe foes have been saying "Gila ah irfan tuh.Org lain semua nak balik kampung,jumpa mak ayah,datuk nenek,dia xnk blk.Dah KL sgt ke?? ". It's not that I don't want to go home because I don't want to see my mom, my step dad,abah, it's because, well, firstly, it's not the same again. It's not like old times where every Raya Haji, aunts and uncles and cousins would all go to rumah Tok Ma in Tanah Merah and celebrate Raya Haji, slaughtering cows and stuff, family gathering,have fun. Everyone's been busy, have their own 'jobs' to do.Plus, family conflicts SUCK BIG TIME!!!!!And we,cousins trapped in between that led us to less contact each other and can't have the family I've ever dreamed of.Secondly, Papa and Ibu and Hayani and Hadif xblk. So, it's not the same like it used to be again. So basically, if I go back, yeah, I could see Mama, but, would not be able to see Papa,Ibu...So, I decided, it's better if I just go back to Acik's and, have a little family gathering. Well, I have my most beloved aunt,Acik, most beloved uncle, Uncle Aim, most beloved cousin, Apiq,tiny comel buas and adorable lil cousin,Amjad, and, it's not too distant from Uia. Plus, there was Mira, Apiq's beloved girlfriend and the estranged-cousin-because-of-his-own-family-conflict, Alip.We had a small gathering,indeed. It was a gathering,yeah, because, well, org Rawang pun datang, for a day,at least.Kind of, give the Raya, a tiny shred of we-all-are-still-together environment.Alhamdulillah. May we, Family, stay in touch, stay in relationships, together forever,Aminn.

Anyway, here are some moments to be cherished later on hopefully.

1st Day Raya

Pagi raya.Our entertainment :D

Apiq,Mira, Amjad si Oneng Oneng

Later that night.Apiq and his :)

Okay,Apiq nk bermanja2

Like we can't!!!

The day after tomorrow. Kite flying.Pantai Remis.

Yeah,happy :)

Oneng-oneng yg comel but,woaah,buasss yang amat :/

Here and there, this and that, I at least could still have fun. Family's everything no matter what. You're a loner, you go to your family. You're down, you go to your family. You're married someday, you will always go to your family. :)

Who's up for flying?

Being able to control your dream?Best woooaaa!!!!You could fly, you could shooting lightning bolt out of your hands.Not to mention, you could have your dream gf/bf....BEST!!!!!

It's all about, LUCID DREAM......

First, there was a friend, telling about, how he always 'wake' up while he's dreaming, and would go and rob banks, killing people he hates and stuff.And I said "xblh nk tipu lagi?".But then, I saw this documentary on Discovery Channel about, Lucid dream.I was curious,though.Is it even possible?I googled it that day and found out about lucid dream, and the best part, how to achieve it.

It's not clear but this is how I remember.

1. Keep telling yourself before going to sleep, that you want to wake up in your dream.
2. When you are awake in dream, try to fly. Learn to fly more often in the next dream.

Ada banyak lagi steps, but, ni je yg igt because.....it's what I did. I kept telling myself to 'wake' up in dream.First, all I remember was, I had a dream where I killed someone at a beach. And people chased me for it.I still didn't realize I was dreaming.I'm scared. I ran towards the sea until I can no longer go further since it's getting deeper and deeper and I might drown, and people are coming to me to, IDK, arrest, kill, beat the hell out of me. X sure, but, all I remember then, I suddenly realize, I'm dreaming. What the hell?People are chasing me, and I got nowhere to go. So, I fly.Wooohoooo,being able to feel the flight, able to control it...it felt great.This went on, I flew around, wandering in the sky......before I then, really WAKE up. Disappointed for waking up, and, it was the best dream ever.

Unfortunately, the steps given didn't work out for the next dreaming. Xbgn2 dlm mimpi haaaa...and xigt2 pun mimpi apa.Anyway, it was fun!

Try it. Google on how to achieve lucid dream, and if you could be an expert, you might want to sleep and sleep. Lucid dreamer = kaki tidur :D

i F'ing love COLDPLAY :D

the official video for the everyday-i-listen single, Paradise :D

The real Spontan and fun games you can play with your friends

This is the real show of 'improv'. And the Spontan show that we have in Malaysia, well, they kindda messed it up. It's not funny,and superbly lame.And daringly say, I FUCKING hate the "Everybody,Spontan!!".But here, they are the true pioneers of 'improv' artists.Whose Line Is It Anyway?

Although I don't really know why that title, but hey, it's hilarious.Who cares? 

:D

Scenes from a hat

The performers/contestants have to make impressions,suggestions,portrayal of suggested scenarios.The host's,Drew Carey, favorite game.

 

Not sure whether this video is one of the videos in the best scenes from a hat video above, but this one, particularly the " If the entertainers work/were at funerals ", made me, ROTBL, rolling on the bed laughing

:D

The Millionaire Show

It's like the title of the game. Just like the Who wants to be a millionaire.But the best part is, they have to do, the different version based on the suggestion which they didn't know in the first place.Hence,they have to 'improv'

:D

Film Dub

They have to ask the audience's suggestions on what foreign language they want to hear, and title for the 'movie' that they are going to act out.Two contestants will 'speak' in the chosen foreign language, the other two will translate it into English,funnily.

 :D

Sound Effects

The host,Drew Carey will choose two people from the audience, and they will have to provide the sound effects for the contestants.Don't understand, watch the video :D

 

Lagi sporting audience, lagi best.This one, the best.

Helping Hands

It's a pretty common games that we could find in TV shows around the world but,MAN!!They really make it like it's the first time you ever see such a game

:D

Moving people

The contestants will have to be mannequins, patung utk display baju kat mall tu, and the chosen audience will have to move them as they go along to act the scene given.They can't move unless the audience move them.

:D

Dead Bodies

One audience will be chosen.The audience and  one of the contestant will start,being a dead body.Only one contestant will live, and move the dead ones like they are action figures.It's funny as hell.

:D

Hoedown

They will have to sing a hoedown ( a gathering for lively folk dancing/singing ).Whose line contestants are well known for their ability to sing,rhyme, spontaneously.

:D

TV/Film dub

Watch a scene from a film/tv,they mute it, and dub.Fun and sangat lawak.

These are some games that you can play.I think, sesuai la kat party2 birthday ke, or tgah2 bosan2 duk dlm bilik, main ngan member :D

 90 Seconds Alphabet

(Suitable for 3 players)

1. Have your non-playing friends to make a scenario. Example " Lost in the forest" or " Going to a concert", anything will do

2. Have them to pick a letter

3. Have anyone from them to be in charge of the time

4. Start playing when you heard "GO"

5. Use the initial letter that has been chosen to begin a sentence/dialogue, relevant to the scene.

6. The second player then has to continue, using a sentence that starts with the word that uses the next letter.

7. Then, the third player continues using the subsequent letter.

8. Rotate turns, until you reach back the first chosen letter or timeout.

9. Have another team of three, repeating the same steps, and judge teams either by speed or emotive skills or creativity or aptness.

Questions Only

( 4 players )

1. Have 2 groups to play.Each group has 2 players.

2. Choose one of each group to start and choose who to begin.

3. Create a scene/scenario.

4. Choose how much time is given.

5. The first turn, has to ask a question to the other player, relevant to the scene.

6. The second player, has to answer the question, with question.

7. Rotate until any of the two players, can't answer anymore or did not answer with question.

8. The losing player, has to change with the player of his/her group, to continue.

9. The game goes on until timeout. The player that could survive the longest, win. 

Stand,Sit,Bend/Lie

( 3 players )

1. Have three people to play

2. The rule is, one player must be standing,one sitting, and one bending.

3. Begin the scene. As an actor in the scene, find justifications for your movement that fits within the context of the scene. Try to force your fellow actors to move as well. The humor comes from watching you attempt to find justification for bending, sitting and standing, so you must not stay in one place.

A great party game,seriously.Watch the video to understand :D

Dramatically, this is the show that has entertained me when I'm down. Point, if you ever get down,sad,stressed, Whose Line Is It Anyway is your 'chocolate'. :)

Oktq :)